Djo

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A Year Ago: 'I was not aware until recently.  I did not know this music existed and I am sad for the time I missed and simultaneously glad for being here now. I'm not going to provide details of this band.  If you are interested please go ahead and search for that information yourself.  If you care, it may bring a smile.   I love the music I have heard from this band so far. Literally, everything makes me smile and feel an uplifted kind f joy that I do not feel often with just music.  Normally there has to be some sort of memory already attached to a song but this album I've been listening to today is phenomenal.  'right out tha gate.' DECIDE. Such a great word.  Yes, there are innumerable possibilities in this world.  Possibilities of the life you could live, the path you could take to lead you, hopefully, to heights of success and happiness you can't even imagine.  But, the thing is, you have to decide.  You can't let yourself sit there and think so much. 
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What's around the corner?

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at some point you have to make a choice
you have to decide who you are
and what you want



this is that point



Can we say "Geez!!"?
I keep aiming and re-aiming myself at words,
freelancing, blogging, Medium, notepad, Ecojot notebook
I try to remember a couple of things while I feel like I'm floating in a beautiful sea
no land in sight in any direction I turn,
I know its out there...

1. My mom would often remind me that everything I want is just around the corner
the trick is to be patient considering you can never actually know where that corner is to be found.

2. I remind myself that thoughts create reality
so, when I find my thoughts spiraling down a drain of darkness and fear,
I reign that shit in, go outside and look up at the sky and the trees and breathe deep and slow.

'Let the thoughts exist and go, only lightly focus on the ones that lead you in the direction of the life that is yours, the life that you want.'

This moment in my life is not easy, not by any stretch of the imagination, but I don't think it's supposed to be.

Just like the level of pain and sadness I still feel at the loss of my parents is equal only to the love between us,
so too is the amount of strength I need to move through this moment equal to the unimaginable life that is mine.


Photo Credit: Sebastian Voortman

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