Grow (W)here You Are Planted

Interesting things are afoot. Space Is The Place - Men I Trust                                                                    Video by  Andreas  from  Pixabay   I finally set up my desk to do desk things instead of jewelry things and it is an interesting afternoon to say the VERY least.   Time and time again I will reiterate to myself and to YOU.  The best way to stream of thought your cares and worries away, the best and most wonderful way to find your typing rhythm and, simultaneously, enjoy yourself so much that the sides of your mouth curl into a smile…one…at…a…time…is to type with beautiful music playing directly and clearly into your ear.  Mood lighting, a cool fan breeze, light thunder outside, and a pretty little glowing candle are not necessary but boy oh boy do they add to the nuanced mood here today. Again and unsurprisingly, Men I Trust has handled the required need as only pros can, and I am comfortably sat on a rolly chair at the beginning of the end of a voluptuous S

I want to rent a small, warm cabin near woods in the middle of a super snowy winter place.  I want all the wood I could need to already be cut and I will plan for and purchase the food needed to stay there for 2-3 months.  I want to be there alone with a dog or two and all the jewelry supplies I have plus a few more purchases.  I also will need electricity to listen to books, music, and movies.  Wifi for sure but not for communication.  I have always wanted this.  Some sort of cabin alone with dogs for cuddling and security.  It reads like I am, more and more, retreating from the world but I don't feel like that's what's happening.  At least it's not the desired end result. There's a whole world that doesn't yet exist because I haven't created it and I need A LOT of space to get it going.  I'll have to give it love and attention so it can become an extension of me but not me. I wonder sometimes if people love me because of the memories they have of me or

 I started updating all my online profiles.  The latest is on Upwork where my heading now reads "I'm Exceptional at Everything I do, No, Really." HA! I love it.  It's so much more fun to say the things in your head and do the things you think about.  It's hard but it's definitely more fun. The latest profiles that I've updated both got responses immediately after I updated them.  THIS after almost 2 years of crickets with the previous profile introductions.   I've always had this thing, I'm pretty sure it stems from being a little girl in the late 70's/ early 80's.  My world was pretty dresses to go to Buela's house and smiling for the parents' friends as requested and not running around like the crazy kid I was and making sure to keep my dress and embroidered socks with the hanging ball on them clean. Not complaining, just highlighting how much unlearning I've been working through. And don't get me wrong, my childhood was P

It gets harder to stay focused every day.  I create and create.  I photograph, edit and post.  I research SEO and trends then remember 'my people will find me' is the motto I'm working with.  My fear tries really hard to take over and make me focus on how much money I'm NOT making because NO ONE is buying what I'm selling.  I even think this post is too close to giving up. One thing I know for sure is I have been successful at finding who TF I am.  I came to Florida to be with family... my brother has known me his entire life.  He knew me before life changed me and so it is easy to just 'be' here.  There are a couple other places/people I can do this in/with but this was the cheapest to move to. No make-up, a basic uniform of clothing to wear each day, no decisions to make, clean hair and skin.  Sleep and eat as well as I can, sweat often, stretch and exercise, and feel all of it.  Affirmations in the morning and at night, face yoga, I'm still a woman. 

 So I FINALLY got into jewelry making.  I take silver sheet and wire and turn them into rings and chains.  I can also make boxes and bracelets and all manner of interesting things. I am the happiest woman in the world. Also, I am losing my mind.   Every day I design, research, clean, shape, cut, bend, solder, file, file, and file some more.  I spend a lot of time taking pictures, editing pictures, and then posting them on my socials with music so folks find themselves interested and want to go to my website (www.lolaandspike.com) and buy jewelry. Only problem in this whole process is I've only had one sale.   I am superbly thankful for that sale.   I am ready for more sales considering it is the only way I can continue this dream of mine.  This dream I've had since I was 17 years old and took my first jewelry-making class in college. It helps that, when I do feel a major panic attack coming on, I can make something and change my focus. Anyway...What I'm saying is GO CHECK O

 OMG! I DID IT! I have started making jewelry again and, today, I opened my first store! There's 9 rings and I love all of them.  I am already working on the next collection and I can't even express how fantastic this feels. Now to get things sold. Check it out!   https://www.lolaandspike.com/